and decisions....what seems to be ordinary and straightforward for others is anything but for me.....i seem to do everything differently from my peers, which causes me grief because stuff seems to be geared towards making the path they choose smoother, people are always asking my 'why? do i do it that way?'

Thing is, I honestly have no idea anymore, and even if i try to do it their way, i sometimes dont know what their way is, and if i do try then I find that there are other blockers )of other things that are different, which mean that doing it their way is really difficult cos there seems to be whole chains of things that have to be done (unfamiliarily) differently