Yuck.

I am considering going to a doctor about this and getting it diagnosed ONCE AND FOR ALL.

Last night I had one of the best gigs of my life and met someone ace, too, and by the end of the night I was so hyped up I was walking down High St Ken just going 'Fuck!' over and over again. And then I stopped, or tried to stop, for 20 seconds, and a big one came out.

And then I started beatboxing.

It's really bloody annoying. Every 5 or 10 seconds I tap. If I don't tap, I beatbox. If I don't beatbox, I click. And if I'm in a public space, I tap with my feet, or I drum rhythms out with my teeth, just in case I embarrass myself.

If I'm really stressed I start clicking really loudly, growling, or swearing... 'wankers' is a favourite.

But in the middle of all this, I'm only about half as bad as Pete Bennett.

I discussed the issue of getting myself seen with my ex, and all she did was nod knowingly, laugh and agree. That's a worrying sign.

It might also be the reason I can't seem to keep a girlfriend beyond three months.

Gash! Any advice?