about tonight.

due to being lazy and not organising anything I have found myself at a right loose end. I got no tickets for any bars my mates are going to and i was resigned to staying in. as the day has gone i have envisioned myself in front of the tv on my own drinking carling and its really got me depressed. I did something really daft and got in touch with a mate by text that is one of my best mates but i fell out with him about 2 months ago and have rarely spoken. Its basically a case of me using him for a night out because i am on my own and feel sad! He was great and said 'we are just going into town, your welcome to come'......but i feel so guilty about doing this. We havent spoken and the mates he will be with know this and i think they can see i am just being a user because I got nothing else to do!

I am scum of the earth